I think tomorrow I’ll punch the punching bag till my arms fall off. Then maybe something good will come to me.
The problem was never really other people. The problem was myself. Often we are given the advice or give the advice to stay away from toxic people. But I have come to a realization that I myself am toxic. I am my greatest sabotage. My own worst enemy. But it is quite the struggle to conquer oneself.
Loneliness should never be met with keeping around people that don’t make you a better person. Sadness is an unfortunate Bi-product of such a situation. I need to excuse myself for a little while. But I can’t be left by myself. I just can’t. But damn this loneliness is painful.